john

Hi there, I stumbled along to find myself on this website. I wasn't looking I was playing online free pokies, and then found my way to this site. Very happy I did, because I am a massive problem gambler...

I have been reading everyone's stories and relate to them down to the finest detail. I have self excluded myself from venues, but still drive outside the territory to find a pokie joint I can blow money in. My problem has always been that i'm too greedy, I've won soo much, but lost a whole lot more and still find myself returning. The most predomenant feeling I get after leaving the pokies is regret, shamefullness, watse of life feeling. I get emotional and yell at myself to the point that i get headaches and sometimes get sick, i've also damaged my own belongings from anger of losing.

I never thought that I will ever post a comment in a forum ever. I think this environment helps us all to gain control of our emotions and headspace to realise what we are doing to ourselves. I always secong guess myself into thinking that I will win, but always come out losing. I have my own business and in the last 5 years ive been in business ive spent close to $200.000+, I still have my business but im living from week to week and lost all my savings.

I have more than $7500 in credit card debt and $45k in loans from people that I borrowed to get me out of crap but ended up putting all of the funds back into the pokies. I only play the pokies and have been since 18 yrs old and im now 24. When I look back, the thing I regret most is the time I could have spend doing things I absolutely love and spend money on the things that add value to me. I have it in me to stop my urges, but keep going back....Today is the last day I gambled 23/05/12, I CAN STOP!! If it's going to be, It's up to ME!

I just wanted to say thank-you to all that have shared your stories it has help me to realise that i need to take control of my life and be all i can be. I hope that this story of mine can somehow be relative and help you. I have read the stats of the pokies and the way they are gear for us to lose, i guess knowing this information can help realising that we can never win even if it looks that way.

On closing here is some food for thought,

" A Man Convinced Against His Will, Is Of The Same Opinion Still"

Convince yourself that you're better, get the facts about gambling and be that person you've always wanted to be!!!

 
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